I hate leaving!

I haven't blogged since I've been home, mostly because I'm lazy, but also because when I have had time to write, I haven't been in the best of moods. I'm nervous about starting the new job and worried about my sister and I hate leaving!

Coming home has been great. I've gotten to see my parents, all my grandparents, some cousins, an aunt and uncle, my brother and sister, my nephew, my dogs, etc. I missed every single one of them so it was nice to reconnect. I have, however, only been able to see a couple of friends, because seeing people all over the east coast becomes a lot more difficult without a car. I'm glad I saw the people I did, but as time is running out I'm starting to feel rotten about not having seen the people I didn't. I wish I could see everybody, but that probably wouldn't be possible even if I did live in this hemisphere.

On a positive note, I did get into the FAST TRAIN program which means that I will be forced to spend some time in the D.C. area next summer and, therefore, will be able to see the majority of my friends. I'm really excited to start school again, too. I just got my textbook for the fall class I'm taking and when I was ordering it, I couldn't stop myself from ordering about five other books on teaching. I read through one of them in about an hour which makes me think I may have been a tad starved of stimulation for the past year. Not to fear though, I'm sure I'll have plenty of challenges this year! I'm not looking foreward to writing papers, but I do think it will be good for me. Over the past four years, my English has slowly declined to about an eighth grade level, so being forced back into academic writing should help a little.

Only a few days before I leave and I feel so unprepared, like always. I have my bags almost packed, but in my head I'm screaming "Noooooo, not yet, please!!!" Unfortunately, I signed my own fate. Six days until take-off.